reflection

I've many thoughts about yesterday and today, but will try to make with the brevity, for I've lots of essays to grade. *sigh*

HONESTY: last night i went to a play and then out for drinks with GFs. it got ugly. bowls of tiny pieces of heart-shaped milk chocolate sat on each table at the vag logs. i ate 4 of them. :0 Thankfully, they were truly tiny, but still, not paleo. they tasted damn good, but i want to maintain the integrity of the challenge, i.e., keep the test pure. i *did* order a tequila and OJ at the play instead of non-paleo spirits. the tequila tasted like ass. thankfully, this is not a huge deal for me because i drink infrequently. if i never drank alcohol again i'd be just fine.

now for the v bad: i hadn't eaten since 4pm ish and was hungry when the play ended. (i didn't eat before the play because i don't like eating when i'm not hungry.) i brought a larabar with me, but that didn't cut it. and i only ate half; i gave half to my GF. the girls wanted to go to Bacchus for drinks after the play. E and I go to Bacchus once a month or so, so the bartenders know us. i walked in and Ben said, "Blue Moon, Jane?" i'm such a sucker; i quickly said "OK." I didn't even want a drink. I only drank 1/3 of my beer, if that. Then i ordered a meal; I only had 5 minutes to place my order before the kitchen closed, so i had to think fast. after reflecting on my meals over the past 2 weeks during the afternoon, i decided to add more greens to my daily diet, so i order a Caesar salad with chicken and little dressing. this meal technically was not paleo because of the dressing -- was a cheat. i did not like that, especially because it was not particularly good. if i'm going to cheat, i want the infidelity to be worthwhile! the upside: i like my paleo salad and dishes a whole lot better.

now for some reflection on my performance at the gym: i typically fall within the bottom of the bunch. i always have one of the slowest times and lift in the lowest weight range. sometimes this bothers me, but i'm keeping it in perspective. for example, yesterday my time wasn't the greatest, was probably second from the last, as usual, but i tried damn hard. i really did. i put 100% effort into every wod. i may be one of the weaker crossfitters, but i TRY, which, at the end of the day, for me personally, is what matters, especially in light of my weight this am. i weighed in at 138.6 pounds on the morning of the 17th day of the challenge. **happy dance** i've lost 6 pounds, which makes me feel strong and good, especially since i haven't just lost weight; i have gained serious muscle. the fact that i haven't had a migraine or felt depressed in quite some time is a true victory. i know this is the direct result of consistent crossfitting and cleaning up my diet. AND i looked good naked this morning. holla!!!!

Tuesday wod:

"Milk was a bad choice" 4 rounds for time
I lifted 63 pounds; time: 15:24

5 Hang Power Clean + Push Jerk* -75 lbs
15 Burpees
Sprint 200-Meters
*For HPC+PJ combo, use 1-RM Shoulder Press weight established 01.07.10